I'm Too Young for a Midlife Crisis

6:33:00 PM

Sometimes you reach a point in life where you start to question what you're doing, whether it be in your career or in your relationship. I recently experienced such a crisis in my career.

Over recent months I started wondering, is this really what I want to be doing? Am I fulfilled here?

Truth be told, for awhile the answer to those questions was a resounding NO. I was unhappy a majority of the time, and not without good reasons, for me anyway.

At the same time I wasn't sure if I wanted to move in another direction. But the only way to determine what direction I would ultimately take was to explore different options, so that's what I've been doing.

If you've been following along with my journey here, then you know the past few months haven't been easy. Love of what you do sometimes isn't enough to justify continuing to do it.

Out of frustration and what could be considered desperation, I started perusing jobs websites in the search of something that might be fulfilling and able to make me happy.

I found one such position and I applied for it. I was asked to come in for an interview, and I did.

I didn't get it.

I've always been a firm believer that things happen for a reason. Sometimes we think we want things, but those things aren't what we need.

Am I saying I need my job? Well, aside from the obvious things it provides that I do need (money, health benefits) ... I don't know.

I truly enjoy what I do. I don't always enjoy who I do it with or what I'm working with to reach my end result, but as far as my actual job title goes ... that part I enjoy always.

I just need a raise ;)

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3 comments

  1. I remember being given a more important sounding job title, more responsibilities and longer hours but oops...they forgot to adjust the compensation package. That's typical.

    I'm sorry you didn't get that other job, Ashton. Interviewing was good experience for you, though, and there's always the next opportunity. I can remember being turned down for jobs that I thought I wanted only to breathe a sigh of relief days or weeks later and ask myself "what was I thinking when I went after a job like that?"

    Television stations often have a high turnover rate, a revolving door. If you stay where you are the cast of characters that you work with will keep changing over time. Eventually a dream team might evolve and you'll be much happier than you've been and thankful that you didn't jump ship.

    Keep all of your options open. He or she who has the most choices wins.

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  2. I understand this a lot, But in a slightly different way. I have given up doing freelance makeup here completely and am settling for a shitty job, slightly related to what I would like to be doing just to pay the bills and hoping to pursue my true dreams once i get off this freaking island.

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  3. On my 25th birthday I cried all day long...talk about an early midlife crisis. I think the trick is to use it to move in the direction you want to go. Sorry you didn't get the job but I am a firm believer in things always work out...something wonderful is right around the corner! Good luck!

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